April 2009
9 posts
Holy SHIT 134!
So I had a pleasant morning. The night was kind of restless. L and I kept tossing and turning in bed. But this morning I woke up, took a shower, and laid on top of The Boy all soaking wet and warm. Then I jumped up and stood on the scale. Amazingly it read 134 freaking pounds! I know I know, its still hefty. But HEY this is exciting. Hopefully, soon, I’m going to post what L and I did last...
Things Other People Want Me To Change
1. Acne. L, my lover, has made it blatantly clear that he is repulsed by my bacne. When it was pretty bad he wouldn’t even have sex with me without my shirt on. I mean, he didn’t even simply NOT take it off. He would say, outright, “take off your pants, leave your shirt on.” As if I’m not going to KNOW what that’s about. And later he said to me “when you...
After Months of Useless Moping...
…I’m going to muster up some courage and willpower and sort my life out. I’ve tried to incorporate all of the “good things” in life, sacrificing as little as possible, taking the bad with the good. But in the end, the only way to achieve the things I want is to suffer a little. I’ve done this before, I can do it again.
Things I want:
1. I want to be thin....